It happened to me today. I was reminded of something that I have been struggling with for quite some time and I got downright upset about it. It happens as simple as someone mentioning it. They are not intending to upset me and I know for a fact they have no clue their simple statement or question had any effect on me whatsoever.
But it does. It makes me feel anxious, worried, insecure, inadequate - ALL OF THE ABOVE. I no longer feel like I measure up in any aspect of my life.
And I hate it. I hate feeling this way. Hate how it affects my mood. Hate how it affects how I treat others. Hate how it affects how I treat myself.
But I'm doing my best to snap out of it and to be bigger than my struggle. But it can be so hard. This too shall pass. I know that with all my heart.
I think you're amazing Syd! I look up to you so much! On "your cup of cake" blog there is a good article! Check it out :) hope you feel better!
ReplyDeleteThanks Tay! I am definitely going to look up that article! Feeling much better today. :) Let's get together soon! Can't believe so much time has gone by since our last lunch date! Hope you are doing well! :)
DeleteI think I know what you mean. The worst part for me is once my good mood does bounce back and then I beat myself up for the time wasted in a crappy mood. I have a quote from President Hinckley on my board, "Happy is the man who can brush aside the offending remarks of another and go on his way" and I've seen one on pinterest lately by Brigham Young, "If you ever have a bad thought about yourself, tell it to go to hell because that’s exactly where it came from."
ReplyDeleteI know you can receive the strength you need to be stronger than your struggle.
1 Nephi 7:17 "But it came to pass that I prayed unto the Lord, saying: O Lord, according to my faith which is in thee, wilt thou deliver me from the hands of my brethren; yea, even give me strength that I may burst these bands with which I am bound."
I am with you 100% about beating myself up again after bouncing back. UGH! Thank you so much for those quotes and scripture. They were just what I needed to hear. You definitely have a gift for being able to recall passages of scripture and share them at the right times. I truly believe that is a gift. I'm working to develop it. :) Thanks for helping lift my spirits! :)
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